Tuesday, January 31, 2012

On the flip side

This little boy inside of me is a mover and shaker! At 38 weeks, our routine doc's appointment revealed something new and surprising to us all-baby brother pulled a total 180 and is now in the "breech" position!  I was a little shocked to say the least, especially since we saw him head down in an ultrasound just last week. Thus, it looks like we are headed for a schedule cesarean.

I'm not going to lie, it's been challenging for me to let go of the idea of a natural birth and surrender to another c-section.  As tightly as I was holding onto the idea of a V-back, I'm more aware than ever that God holds all things in his hands, and is working towards our ultimate good. He created this little boy inside of me, and loves him so much more than I can fathom already. However baby boy makes his grand entrance, I have peace knowing that God is in control. Much easier said than done though, I admit!

The idea of a scheduled c-seciton to me brings on many emotions. Fear being at the forefront-surgery is scary! I didn't have the best experience with Evan, so readers, please join me in praying for a smoother surgery this time around. A close runner up to the fear factor is the more complicated recovery, though I have heard many an encouraging word from women who have been there-that the second is much easier than the first. And, to round out my worries, my mommy's heart is torn over how this will impact Evan. I'm sure everything will work out just fine, but on this side all I can think about is not being able to pick him up and comfort him the way I need to, especially when he's still so young and his world will be in such a state of transition already. I hate that we'll be in the hospital longer, and don't want to spend a minute more away from him than necessary. But, though I hate to admit it, I know he'll survive without me(shocker). Again, easier said then done haha.

On the other hand, there is a teeny tiny but very possible chance this guy could turn in the next few days and come on his own time. While that would be a shining answer to my prayers, I'm doing my best to be at peace if that's not how things happen. Either way, the outcome will be the same-a beautiful, healthy baby boy. :-)

Something tells me this new little guy is going to keep me on my toes!


Shayna said...

Oh, Rebecca! Do know that I'll be fervently praying for you during the whirlwind of a season. Peace. Comfort. Healing. ((HUG)) I have read and heard that a visit to a chiropractor is helpful for breeched little ones ... it helps to reposition them in the right direction. Maybe something you can look into. A quick search on youtube "chiropractor pregnant" will bring up lots of video testimonies.

P.S. Love the new blog layout. Very happy looking!! :)

BoldLion said...

Oh! I will be praying for you all! Please do let me know if you need any help. HUG!

Love you all!
Hungry to eat His Word,
'Guerite ~ BoldLion

Lori said...

Love, love, love your new header!

Know that we are praying for you, Chris, Evan, Baby Boy, and doctors!

JCRandolph said...

Oh boy...that was one of my fears with Cole. Bradley class said that you can turn a breech if you do handstands in the swimming pool. Not sure if you'll have that chance, but that was my plan if my baby had turned breech :). Praying for a safe delivery!